The fact that I am fascinated with Osho dates back a long way. From the funny video that I watched back in college on the creative usage of the four letter word to the most subtle truths of life on Awareness, Intuition and Intelligence. Osho has been at the background of my quest. Osho and UG Krishnamurthy are two people who constantly hold my thinking on spiritual lines from falling into blind faith. They make my quest more lively and beautiful.

The idea of being true to yourself and at the same time not being harsh on yourself is a seemingly simple but revolutionary thought. I think the world and the people in it cannot be denied  however bad or unconventional they are from your perspective and definitions. Denial of problems and people who are constantly around us is real sleep and not any awakening! My understanding of the texts is
"It is coexistence that is required and not denial or condemnation".

Osho lived with a community of people usually low on moral standards as the society defines it today! He was one of them of naked youth with LSD and Marijuana, unrestricted sex and multiple partners. A world most of the people shiver even thinking about. Can any pure thought stem out such an environment? Can you meditate in that setting? They were all people who fell wayward, who lost themselves along the way! But that still does not lead me to reject him as a Guru. His thoughts and books are what matters, whether written under the influence of Valium or Nitrous Oxide does not really matter to me.

People say he was self-contradicting and reckless with what he said. But I think he reveled in inconsistency and paradox. It is impossible to box him. He was not the usual Guru, one who stuck to principles and methods advocating purity and sanctity. He was just an irreverent human being, intelligent and absurd at the same time. His words are almost mantric in nature as they flow into you as you read them. It is not reading and understanding a book, it is very different than that. I don't yet put into practice what he said but I read him anyway just for the lovely feeling of reading. And in all those books that I have read till now, no other comes close. No other book makes me feel the futility of using my mind while reading.

His thinking unconventional and questions direct, answers simple and self-forgiving. He challenges everything around that is considered as the Way to God! For there is no God. Buddha never saw God, he felt Silence and saw the logic behind. And that silence is felt when you give up rules and expectations. When you stop thinking that you are running out of time. Slap the guy who said Life is short! Accepting the theory of reincarnation makes us all more forgiving and enjoy our present moment heartily. It gives us time of multiple births, millions of years to err and to correct. To become better without ever feeling guilty of missing it today. As Osho says in one of the books  to feel guilty that you have missed being aware is also useless. After all, it takes time to change and to become more understanding of this world and its subtle ways, what is important is that we are genuinely doing our best in the present moment.

As most of his devout followers say "You would love Osho!" There is no other word, I Love Osho! That is the word - not respect or appreciate.